I feel like it is required for every teenager to go through the phase where they just get incredibly upset with everything and everyone, but I feel like mine lasts a lot longer than everyone else’s.
Of course we’re all hormonal and feel like life ends when we can’t do what we please, but, to me, I can’t ever be legitimately happy. I try incredibly hard to take myself out of the situation; play soccer, go for a run, hangout with friends, but I can’t keep running away from my problems. My biggest problem is that I don’t know what’s causing this plague. Yes, I’m stressed. I’m a 16 year old athlete that is expected by many to know what she wants to do for the rest of her life. I hate to break it you, but I’m not ready.
The hardest part is not understanding why I am so “cranky” and sensitive. Of course when I’m PMSing I cry over everything. My mom will ask me to clean my room and I’ll ask her why she hates me. But that passes and I move on. So why else am I not happy? Maybe I’ll never know. Maybe this is one of life’s unanswered questions that I just have to accept and deal with and forget about when I’m older. The thing is this problem will probably be incredibly minuscule in about five years, but as of right now, it’s the hardest part of my life.
Jessica Daskalakis 